when my wife graduated college, we took a job in north carolina, we were going to do worship and work with the youth, we were really excited. we packed up everything, said by to our friends, quit our current jobs, and moved to north carolina. after a few weeks there we, began to question if we had made the right decision, and maybe we had missed what God really had for us. needless to say, we ended up leaving after only 2.5 months. this time we sold EVERYTHING we owned and flew to alaska.
this is where the story really gets going...
after being in alaska for only a week we found out that we were 8 weeks pregnant... we were freaked out, excited, and overwhelmed all at the same time. we had just come out of a really bummer-of-a-deal church situation and to find out we were going to be parents. after a few days of embracing the idea and getting excited, and going to the doctor, we decided to tell people. everyone was very supportive and excited, it made us even more excited for this new journey. however, the next day we wife mandy miscarried and we lost the baby. words cannot express the amount of pain we experienced. we honestly felt broken, helpless and lost.
a few weeks later we moved out of my parents house, and into a little apartment in the wrong side of town, got stable jobs and just rested. everyday got a little bit easier since the loss of the baby. just when we thought we were on stable ground, and had things under control, we found out we were pregnant again. i think you could imagine the confuse and fear we were feeling.
i once had a teacher in jr. high tell me that guitar was going to be my therapy, and dont ever stop playing. through this past season God really put a song in my heart, i didnt really understand it, i hadnt heard what it sounded like, but i knew it was there. and my teacher was right, guitar was my escape, just me and god. i begin to write some of the most personal songs i had ever written, and through these songs i began to heal.
my wife and i just found out last week we are having a little girl, we are believing and thanking God everyday for our beautiful and healthy baby girl. we have settled on the name grace. there have been some mentors in our lives that have spoken into our lives, at the time we left north carolina they said we would be growing in grace, and last week they said that god has blessed up with a crown of grace. she is expected to arrive on july 2nd. you should see my wife, she is more beautiful than ever. she is the mother of grace.
i have been working on these songs, recording them, re-writing them, and getting them ready to do a full cd. in the meantime, i wanted to share a few of them with you. i just released a three song ep called 'perfume and a song.' this is just a little peak at the journey i have had, and when it is at its worst, the best and all i have to give is my perfume and my song.
the cd is free to download, or pay whatever you want. i just want you to be blessed by the music. i hope this story makes sense, if not listen to the music, i think it will speak for itself. download it here:
